Thyroid-3 days and counting

My dream last night was about a large bee shaped likea dragonfly that bites and if it bites, eventually itbecomes an alligator and takes over the body. Onelanded on my mother's back and I swatted it off...then I turned and told her to look too... There was apale white snake with cold eyes but inside the snakewas an alligator walking within the snake's body.I saw the legs and the head sticking out the front ofthe snake. I turned with a stick to fight thealligator and I saw him through a slit in the side ofthe snake, a giant writhing beast. I took the stickand went to stab the gator... then I woke up.Well we all know what the slit is, and only throughthe slit in the side of my body, can they attack thebeast. I've read online where people can have thiscancer for decades and live a normal life. Well you are in rare form. I feel like I'm in the Garden of Gethsemane. The agony in the garden.Oh well, I'm in the last 1/3 part of my life.I remember 30 years ago so well. Images flashingbefore me, sacred images... I just had a flashback to my first day at college... the nervousness and fear.The years roll away and it's a warm day in late Augustin 1976. The dorm was depressing. By nightfall Ihad attended my first party and the first few dayswere no classes and generally fun. But part of mejust wanted to go on with my previous life.It's weird to think that between that day and now, that's the lion's share of my life! Another 30 is notimpossible but I'm feeling very 2/3rd today.I feel like my individual soul will die when I die andit merges with a group soul that keeps spinning outnew lifetimes. Nothing is totally lost, thoughindividual artifacts of personhood that are merequirks of the temporal become subsumed into the one, but forever accessible. Whatever I lose in 3 days, I lose, but it won't stop me from walking this earth and enjoying this Spring. I've been helped along with little dreams the wholeway, 3 so-far. At every major stressor point, a dream comes out to show the way.

pvs